table of contents

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              1. The Gentle Art of Wayfaring
              2. Walking on Air
              3. Rebuilding from within
              4. An Exercise in Unknowing
              5. in praise of Inchoate Reality
              6. Engineering and Angels
              7. While Unsleeping
              8. the Grand Scheme of Things
              9. to the Reader
              10. Man Creates God
              11. Invitation to a close encounter
              12. All Actual Life is Encounter
              13. Do fish have souls?
              14. A magical place
              15. Home journal
              16. Cherishing the Past
              17. if a white feather falls in front of you…
              18. Recycling via the Salvation Army
              19. Why we do what we do
              20. Lucid Waking
              21. The Pen is Mightier than the Sword
              22. What looks after us?
              23. Take Nothing for Granted
              24. Angels and Us
              25. an Outsider
              26. My Life as Art
              27. On Coombe Hill
              28. Mill Park
              29. The Angelic Gift
              30. Flowers of Grass
              31. Country Walk
              32. The Gift Horse
              33. Liberation
              34. The Buddha and the Corpse
              35. Full Circle
              36. Girl with a Pearl Earring
              37. Sittism or mainly Whateverism
              38. Lehman Brothers Bites the Dust
              39. From a Nest of Terrorists
              40. Living in High Wycombe
              41. Eagle Flew Out of the Night
              42. Touched by the Printed Word
              43. Portrait of Two Kings
              44. This Blessed Plot
              45. Friendly Black Sheep
              46. Norfolk House
              47. Where Norfolk House Stood
              48. Fog on the Solent
              49. Intelligent Design
              50. Hurried Post
              51. Uncertainty
              52. Prophetic Words from 1976
              53. 1976: The prize-winning Lawless prophecy
              54. 1976 Prediction of the Mighty System
              55. Amazing Predictions
              56. When Memory Strikes
              57. The Ventilator Cowl
              58. Bledlow Ridge
              59. A Brush with the Past
              60. 32 Answers
              61. Altering the Past
              62. Sunlit Ecstasy
              63. The Princess Flying Boat
              64. Litter
              65. The Magic Fence
              66. Bonfire of the Vanities
              67. Resuming Normality
              68. The Constant Spring
              69. Angst and Angels
              70. Springtime
              71. Flat-bottomed Clouds
              72. Healing
              73. Rainy day window
              74. The Placebo Effect
              75. Why Pain?
              76. Community
              77. Carbon Footprint
              78. an old Cockney song
              79. Good Vibrations
              80. Valley Creatures
              81. Sisyphus and the Rolling Stone pt 4
              82. Homer’s Odyssey
              83. Divine Anarchy
              84. Angelic Brightness
              85. Angelic Omens
              86. Preferring the Old Telephones
              87. The old Telephones
              88. On a Dark and Stormy Night
              89. One thought fills Immensity
              90. Revelations
              91. Sex Therapy book
              92. Sex Therapy
              93. Self-Doubt
              94. The Moment
              95. Love to All
              96. The Cosmic Ordering Service
              97. Diogenes and Alexander
              98. Angels Disguised as Bandits
              99. Fantasies
              100. Bicycle
              101. Walking Alone
              102. In the Industrial Valley
              103. The Visionary Eye
              104. Love Affairs
              105. The Deck of Cards
              106. John o’Saturn Meets Women from Earth
              107. The Towers of Cybele
              108. To Paul, from Vincent
              109. Why do Ladybirds have Spots?
              110. Not Knowing feels like a good place to be
              111. Not trying too hard
              112. Easter Reverie
              113. Is Soul poured into Flesh?
              114. What is Soul?
              115. Do Fish have Souls?
              116. Do I have an Immortal Soul?
              117. Happiness Machine
              118. Punishment or Happiness?
              119. What the Alpine Club Had to Say
              120. The Handyman, by Brian Spaeth
              121. Ant vs Sluggard
              122. Bus Station
              123. Whithersoever
              124. Bus Ride
              125. Slug Life
              126. Back Home from Hospital
              127. Passion and Society
              128. Living in a Body
              129. … Until the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse land at Heathrow
              130. The Bitter Taste
              131. The Poetic
              132. Bless My Soul
              133. Neon or Candle-Light
              134. Blazing a Trail
              135. An Open Letter to the Person Complaining
              136. The Book of Margery Kempe
              137. The Free Soul
              138. A Fig-Leaf for David
              139. Enhancing the Sky
              140. This Blessed Plot
              141. Bach and Blackbird
              142. BWV 140, a Church Cantata of J.S. Bach
              143. An Air for Cello and Soprano
              144. Art as Generosity
              145. Classical Music of Africa
              146. Escaping from a Festival
              147. Dark Star
              148. Storms
              149. What Grandma Told Me…
              150. The Human Condition
              151. Fragile
              152. Theatre of Life
              153. One Piece of Baggage
              154. The word Spiritual
              155. What is the greatest invention of all time?
              156. Ducks and Drakes
              157. Ritual & Reason
              158. Cornfields near Amersham Old Town
              159. Bible-reading Martyrs
              160. A Very English View
              161. Liking and Disliking
              162. Museums and Women
              163. Mission
              164. Mission to Babylon
              165. Pedestrian Ideas
              166. Yellow
              167. England in Spring
              168. Blurbs
              169. the beggar gives without my asking
              170. Dream Lesson
              171. Some Dreams
              172. When the Past Haunts the Night
              173. Night Thoughts
              174. The Senses
              175. Affinity
              176. Fernando Pessoa
              177. A Traveller’s Stale
              178. Lisbon
              179. By Bus and Canal
              180. Sunday Morning Stroll
              181. Unblocking
              182. Intelligent Design
              183. Panspermia
              184. Straw Dogs
              185. The Pope and the Koran
              186. All we ever need to know
              187. Discussion on Education
              188. The Realm of Infinite Possibility
              189. Perpetual Lab
              190. Piklu and the Old Man
              191. Enough of Priesthoods
              192. Hasty Sketch Map
              193. Preoccupied and Dreamy
              194. Sent to Boarding School
              195. Healing
              196. Eleventh Child
              197. Brexit Dream 1
              198. Brexit Dream 2
              199. Brexit Dream 3
              200. Beggars and Brexiteers
              201. Manhattan Odyssey
              202. 90 Minutes in New York
              203. No Man is an Island
              204. Other Places, Other Times
              205. Pilgrimage to St Cuthbert’s
              206. Privacy, Fearlessness
              207. Released from Hospital
              208. Driving Again
              209. Eagle Flew Out of the Night
              210. Storms
              211. Learning How to Live
              212. Crime and Punishment
              213. Death Row
              214. From the Gone Past
              215. University Dreams
              216. Ship of Dreams
              217. If I burn to death, they’ll be sorry
              218. Fields of Blood
              219. Religion on Public Life
              220. The Story of Tools
              221. Robert Louis Stevenson on Gas Lamps
              222. Knowledge of Angels
              223. Inner and Outer Landscape
              224. Mr Lehane is Back
              225. Back Home in Blighty
              226. Accompaniment
              227. Being ready
              228. by their fruits
              229. What is life?
              230. By their Fruits
              231. Anam Ċara
              232. Spirit
              233. The Mysterious Impulse
              234. Stepping on Air
              235. The Lord is my Shepherd
              236. A Coney Island of the Mind
              237. Dawn Today
              238. Pedestrian Ideas
              239. The Covenant
              240. Time Consumes: Art Distils
              241. Stairway to Heaven
              242. Maxiram Revisited
              243. Holy Family
              244. Fevered Interlude
              245. the New Pub
              246. what is God?
              247. Cool Vibrations, Good Migration
              248. Angelic Omens
              249. Cook for Cats
              250. in the days of low sun
              251. Southward
              252. Christmas Past
              253. On Christmas Eve
              254. On Reading the Bible
              255. The Boy Samuel
              256. The Bible as a Sacred Object
              257. Bible-reading Martyrs
              258. In a Dark and Secret Wood
              259. To Him that Knocketh
              260. The Headmaster’s Wife
              261. Escaping one’s Enemy
              262. Taking the Bull by the Horns
              263. Eternal Echoes
              264. I am an Animal
              265. Wet Day
              266. To Hayden, on Pets
              267. With a Pinch of Salt
              268. George Santayana
              269. Purpose
              270. Early Childhood
              271. Some Rare Photos
              272. Latin Class
              273. King James I School
              274. Black Books
              275. Dreams
              276. Night Thoughts
              277. Two Vincents
              278. Vincent in Auvers
              279. The Butterfly Phase
              280. The Persistence of Selfhood
              281. The Centaur
              282. High Wycombe has a Monopoly
              283. Views from Our House
              284. The Chilterns
              285. Adaptation
              286. The Yet-to-be invented e-Writer
              287. The Phoenix Trail
              288. Managing my Time on Earth
              289. How we got here, where we go next
              290. Sleeper Class
              291. Free as a Bird
              292. Ticket to Paradise
              293. From a Thief
              294. Everything Knows
              295. Stories of Animal Sagacity
              296. Stories of Feline Sagacity
              297. I Leap Over the Wall
              298. The Anointing of Saul
              299. The Old Testament
              300. Memorable Achievements?
              301. Magic of Day and Night
              302. A Dummy’s prayer answered
              303. Mr Sudell
              304. In the Days of Low Sun
              305. Confession
              306. The Art of the Possible
              307. Angels and Grace
              308. Good and Bad
              309. Wasp Honey
              310. Hornet’s Nest
              311. Wittgenstein
              312. Whereof one cannot speak
              313. Depth
              314. Smarts
              315. Preface
              316. Preface Mark II
              317. Preface Mark III
              318. Inside Out
              319. The Howrah Bridge Palmist
              320. Van Loon’s Lives, and Other Stories
              321. From an Old Notebook
              322. Wittgenstein on Imagination
              323. Jordan Peterson and Susan Blackmore
              324. Something Meaningful
              325. Here in October
              326. The View from Nowhere
              327. Distinguish what’s Real
              328. Like an Artist’s Brush
              329. Me and the Little Rock Nine
              330. User-Friendly
              331. Rambling in a Landscape
              332. Writing Instrument
              333. Classical Music of Africa
              334. The Price of Civilisation
              335. Jamaica, April 2018
              336. More Jamaica
              337. Jamaican Album
              338. From Jamaica
              339. Peg, a minor character
              340. Kindness, Audio Podcast
              341. Strange Angels
              342. Delicious, not Precious
              343. The Unnamed Road
              344. Back to Slough
              345. Rooted here
              346. Attitude
              347. Compassion
              348. Stepping Aside
              349. Thirteen
              350. Animal
              351. Attracted
              352. Blissful
              353. Constant
              354. forgiving
              355. Generous
              356. humble
              357. Akin
              358. Natural
              359. Outreaching
              360. Self-proclaiming
              361. unjudging
              362. wise
              363. Blessed by the Sun
              364. Head and body
              365. In the thistle-field, at dawn
              366. Perspectives and Remembrance
              367. My true self
              368. “The Head’s Sermon”
              369. Remembrance
              370. Remembrance Sunday
              371. Dress Code
              372. They that go down to the sea in ships
              373. The Holy Ghost
              374. Improvisation
              375. Dr Johnson and Blockheads
              376. Climb the lowest mountain
              377. Graffiti
              378. Alley Creatures
              379. Gerrards Cross and the Wayfarer
              380. Gerrards Cross
              381. The Secret Life of Strangers
              382. God is silent: Angels are here
              383. What is Philosophy?
              384. Abstract Thinking vs Sensuous Living
              385. Human Animal
              386. Stepping Out
              387. Death before Dishonour
              388. the Lure of Literature
              389. Publish and be Damned
              390. Portrait of her Grandfather
              391. Annie Dillard
              392. The Mysterious Impulse
              393. Only the bicycle shed still stands
              394. News of the fight soon reached the Queen
              395. A call from “Alma Mater”
              396. David’s Fig-Leaf
              397. Pygmalion and Galatea
              398. Face to Face
              399. The Girl who Rocked the Government
              400. Pastures New
              401. Up through the floorboards
              402. X: the Unknown
              403. Life Story Part 2
              404. Life Story Part 1 
              405. Being a nobody
              406. Like Wildfire
              407. Reason to celebrate
              408. Visit to Dalkey in 2014
              409. Greenhayes Across the Years
              410. Old Photos
              411. The Long Journey to Now
              412. Acknowledgments
              413. Original version of diary software
              414. My diary
              415. Your diary
              416. From Etty, to God
              417. Spaces
              418. All Religion is Magic!
              419. Life-Illusion
              420. Angel Story
              421. Heaven-Haven
              422. Tooting Broadway Dude
              423. What makes me Uneasy
              424. Getting Things Done
              425. My Creation Myth
              426. The Joker Chuang-Tzu
              427. The Denial of Death
              428. The Secret Agent
              429. Hell! said the Duchess
              430. The Search for Meaning
              431. Angels
              432. An Outsider’s Perspective
              433. Beliefs 1: Pursue your Dreams
              434. Unimaginable
              435. The Tree of Life
              436. Reunion
              437. …and a Kitchen Sink, too
              438. The Snowdrop Garden
              439. Is it Just Evolution?
              440. Spring, or the Talk that Never Was
              441. Guided Randomness
              442. Simone Weil on Evil
              443. Simone Weil on Politics and Justice
              444. Gravity and Grace, by Simone Weil
              445. A Graceful Retreat
              446. The Garden of Remembrance
              447. The Interconnectedness of All Things
              448. Nature’s Profusion
              449. Duckling traffic
              450. Cherry Tree
              451. As a Novice
              452. Maslow’s Pyramid
              453. Enthousiasmos
              454. To My Literary Agent
              455. What to Do
              456. Unfettered
              457. clouds and simple things
              458. Letters to the Universe
              459. Reader-Friendly
              460. Testament
              461. View from the Hill
              462. Intrepid Victorians
              463. Binding a Joy
              464. Joy without a Cause
              465. In Memory of George Whitman, 1913-2011
              466. A Comatose Fridge, and Whatever’s Meant to Be
              467. Presence: the Numinous in Everyday Life
              468. At the Blue Note Café
              469. From the Land of Serendip
              470. The Exchange of Gifts
              471. At the Moot Spot
              472. Who is my Neighbour?
              473. English pancakes
              474. enough of priesthoods
              475. The Creative Mind
              476. Intrepid Victorians (2)
              477. I am not a Machine
              478. Jotted Psalm
              479. Scintillating Scotoma
              480. Secret Strength
              481. Spreading the Word
              482. Why write Memoirs
              483. Not Doing and Not Writing
              484. Meeting Myself
              485. On Fresh Air Alone
              486. On Being an Animal
              487. The Origins of Speech, according to Wittgenstein
              488. God, Love, Marriage, Sex
              489. The Faculty of Wonder
              490. Aboriginal Tirade
              491. Enough of Priesthoods
              492. Tsundoku
              493. The Opium of the People
              494. Suffusion of Yellow
              495. Seeing from a Height
              496. Luck & Angelic Messengers
              497. Hole in the Head
              498. Figures in a Landscape, updated
              499. Encounter in a Landscape
              500. Round and Round the Pampas Grass
              501. Fantasies
              502. Sail away
              503. Blue Sea
              504. Watercress and Angels
              505. The Moment, and The Rainbow
              506. Breadcrumbs . . . . . .
              507. Eternity in the City
              508. Divine Economy?
              509. Caterpillar
              510. God and the Laws of Physics
              511. From Handwriting to Eternity
              512. Not Knowing
              513. The Past Rewrites Itself
              514. Wayfaring Again
              515. The Springtime of Youth
              516. In Memoriam for a lost friend
              517. Glimpsing Eternity
              518. Four-leaf Clover
              519. A Modest School Reunion
              520. Pregnant Thoughts
              521. Gaia Warriors
              522. Infinite are the Depths
              523. Christina in a Bookshop
              524. On Happiness
              525. pheasant
              526. Zorba the Greek
              527. Responsibility
              528. Housewifery
              529. Intimations of Immortality
              530. Brother Sun, Sister Moon
              531. Lion and Thorn
              532. Art is more than Life
              533. Lambs and Us
              534. Live by the Pen, Die by the Pen
              535. Let Spring be my Muse
              536. Evolution
              537. Why has Bodhi-Dharma Left for the East?
              538. Everything Desires
              539. Eros, Agape and In-Godding
              540. Gladness
              541. La Vie en Rosé
              542. Religion: Conquest of Fear?
              543. Finding my Way in the Void
              544. The Steps
              545. Our planned trip to Brussels
              546. Brussels
              547. Etty Hillesum