Goddess

I know I said I just wanted to be accepted, but I’ve been thinking about it, and I want to be accepted for my whole self AND treated like a goddess – which I think this photo neatly captures. I’m done with the: ‘I’m so low maintenance and I don’t need you to put any effort into me’ thing. I think one of the things I’m most afraid of in a relationship is being taken for granted. Last year I dated a man older than me who didn’t pay rent and had a job. He stayed with me for a few days and paid for nothing. I food shopped and cooked and cleaned and he spoke about himself the whole time and marvelled at how I felt like his therapist. Every night I’d fall asleep feeling incredibly drained, counting down the days before he left. He had no interest in me other than the services I provided. Despite all this, he was a sweet guy and after he left he sent a message saying he felt he’d gotten a lot from me and asked what I felt he gave to me. I calmly told him that I didn’t think he saw me or realised how great I was. I’m glad that happened because it taught me to have some self respect and standards. Being in a relationship is a lot of work and compromise already, I think especially for young women dating young men. There’s a lot of caring and coaxing and teaching that young women are socialised to do for young men that I would like to be compensated for by being treated like a GODDESS. I’ve done my time, feed me grapes on the vine.